Gelo's Mind

The other day my twin brother, his girlfriend, my boyfriend and I all celebrated Father’s day at my dad’s. It was a fun time just hanging out with family and we were all comfortable being all touchy-feel-y. However, we decided to leave around 10-11:00 pm. Taking the subway at that our going from the Bronx to Harlem is not exactly the safest place to be for same-sex affection.

I couldn’t help but notice the odd quietness and perhaps sadness that my Boyfriend was giving off. It was odd…so we shared headphones and i put on a playlist of love songs to be cute, and here and there I rubbed his knee and cheek making sure not too many people were watching. 

when we were back at my place he gave me a big hug and it seemed like he was close to tears. I still couldn’t figure out what was wrong, so I held him tight and told him he can tell me anything. But he refused. A couple days later he finally decided to tell me. He said that he was sad that my brother and his gf could be as affectionate as they pleased while we had to be cautious. He thought he was dumb for feeling that way and I stopped him. I told him it was a very valid thing to feel and it’s something I feel all the time. Usually i’d say FUCK SOCIETY FUCK THE HETERONORMATIVE HOOD…but my bf’s safety is at stake and there’s really nothing I can do… 
I feel like in any other environment, even places I don’t know of, is a safer place than the hood to be outwardly queer and that SUCKS.